Saturday, January 28, 2012

the only thing matter is in front of you

have you ever wonder you want everything in your life instantly? termasuk juga dengan harta, duit, family, friends, anything. you may get it but it won't be perfect. If it does, you will want more and kita pun terpengaruh dgn cerita Tangled; ''If you have reached your dream, find another dream''. sama je concept dengan benda yang kita nak. kita takkan puas. sampai bila kita nak puas? *kenapa aku tiba2 rasa awkward dengan ayat aku tadi eh? never mind.

in my opinion, we will NEVER satisfy with the things in front of us. once we get it, we will simply forget the basic thing in life, appreciation. bila dah dapat sesuatu barang tu, bersyukur la cuz tak semua orang akan dapat benda yg dorang nak. let's imagine this, try to put your position in lesser fortunate people. perhaps that way you can start to appreciate things in your hand. just saying.

in family or friends matter, sometimes they won't get to see our existence as we're just bunch of people who they might think we don't have any feeling. but truth is, everyone has a feeling. at some point you will cry about this, realizing that no one care about your feeling as if you're alone in this world. do you want to keep it in this way? do you? do you? do you just want to let go of it and let time solve it for you. time might be your slave if you use it right but its not the best counselor. you have to try how to solve it and whatever it is, if you failed, it is not the end of world for you. at least you tried. who knows in the future things happen much better for you. things happen for a reason right? kita mungkin takkan nampak benda ni, kita pun bukannya pakar tilik. but as a muslims and human, we just have to believe in this phrase. it did actually happen. don't hope for it. believe it.

i'm a typical teenagers. sometimes i don't realize how much do i neglect something important in my life. when i do, i have been at the lowest point of life. sometimes i just want to die to make it easier. but running from your problems does not solve anything, even dead. embrace it. be brave enough. i learnt something valuable, you can't be a coward if you want to survive. at the same time, be confident with yourself. take note, if you want to help people by supporting them, you have to support yourself first. see, this is self-appreciation. *wujud ke perkataan macam tu?

anyway, get started by appreciate everything in your life. family, friends, clothes, shoes, fitted cap, etc. we don't want to end up in miserable when we lose that 'things' and later we know how much does it meant to us. i don't know about you, but everything i have in my life, in any aspect, i want to praise to Allah cuz giving me a chance to have my wish. He granted my wishes though some of it weren't perfect. start to learn to appreciate people and things around you. insyaAllah, you will get the same thing in return. karma does actually exist! *amal punya ajaran. but karma also comes from Allah. okay, that's it for now. time for me to sleep. :) ttyl.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

nobody can be successful unless he loves his work

it's sad to see that nobody cares and leave them breathless. some of them stated that this is part of their life. some says they can't live without it. some says they can't go a day without it. what is it? music. everyone loves music right? who doesn't? there's a bunch of kids who's very keen to play music at such young age. maybe they were inspired by musician like yiruma, sung ha jung, bach, rachmaninoff and many more. i have this one lucky chance and might be opportunity once in a lifetime to teach several of them at home. yeah, as i didn't do anything at home, my piano teacher had offered me a job to teach kids music at their home. we can say that i'm a private tutor, in music.

 i get to see this lovely and wonderful kids as my student, how they passionately want to play piano, guitar. i'm so glad to teach them whenever they need me. even their parent have been looking forward to see their kids play some instrument. you know, one of my student named lucy has been my favorite student. haha. you know she's naughty, so stubborn but yet she has that pure talent i rarely seen anywhere. i can tell you she might play better than i am when she's at my age. she's amazing. they way she play it, i know it was from her heart. despite her young age, she improved a lot better than any of my students. i don't expected that. sometimes she reminds me of the young me. sometimes we quarrel a lot, but when she plays, i looked at her and i tell this to myself, how lucky iam to have this little girl as my student. she even called me 'sir wolf' haha. for your info, she's the first student to call me 'sir'. sometimes she called me 'wolf'' instead of 'sir' whenever she feel unsatisfied with me. haha. you know, now i miss her so much. haish, that kiddo. :') this little girl has been special to me. well, we can say that i already treat her like my own daughter. lol.

but i know, she won't live longer. her mom has told me that she has a cancer and the chance for her to live is too low. i really feel sorry for her. at such young age, she has to struggle so many things in her life, knowing that her pain could kill her. i just hope for this miracle so that one day she would survive. yeah, that's one of my dream now. i really want her to be safe. she inspired me a lot in such short time. i will definitely encourage her to fight against her disease until the end. i will try my best to help her.

eventually, i really love all my student. because of her, i get to learn to appreciate everyone in my life, including all my students. beside that, i really do love my job. i get to see these kids every single day. i love kids! i love music! so this is a perfect job for me. to lucy, i just hope you're gonna be alright, eh? there you go your favorite word, 'eh'. well, keep on positive. i will see you in the upcoming class! :') also to my other students, i can't wait to meet you guys back. i already miss you guys a lot. period. :( 

So it's a Lunar New Year right? I hope this isn't too late but Happy Chinese New Year to all my chinese friends including my classmates and my lovely piano teacher. to all chinese around the world, Gong Xi Fa Cai!